Lucky...
I was thinking the other day about the day when my student loan will be finally paid off. As you know from my previous posts I still have just under $15,000 to payoff.
Let me tell you, paying off all of my debt (student loans, credit card debt, car loan, etc.) has been a major struggle for me. I have been in debt up to my ears for the last 10 years. However, I'm sure that the day that I announce to my friends and peers that I have finally paid off my student loans I will receive many comments about how "lucky" I am to have paid off my loans. Already, in just speaking to friends and peers many have commented how lucky I will be to have my student loan paid off next year. I have said numerous times to so many people how "lucky" they were when they had money to do something cool. Wow, just thinking about that irritates me. I don't feel lucky at all, I feel beat down and run over. I have had to sacrifice so much just to be able to get as far as I am and I still feel so far behind. Man, I wish I had been socking money away in the stock market for the last ten years. I feel like I don't make enough money and that even after all of my debt is paid off, I don't think I'll have enough money to adequately save for retirement and have a little fun. Life is so stressful. While I am extremely grateful for all of my blessings and the knowledge and passion to manage my finances, I don't at all feel lucky. I feel like I have worked hard to get a law degree and worked my way up through the years to get a decent salary. Nothing about my journey so far as felt easy or lucky.
Let me tell you, paying off all of my debt (student loans, credit card debt, car loan, etc.) has been a major struggle for me. I have been in debt up to my ears for the last 10 years. However, I'm sure that the day that I announce to my friends and peers that I have finally paid off my student loans I will receive many comments about how "lucky" I am to have paid off my loans. Already, in just speaking to friends and peers many have commented how lucky I will be to have my student loan paid off next year. I have said numerous times to so many people how "lucky" they were when they had money to do something cool. Wow, just thinking about that irritates me. I don't feel lucky at all, I feel beat down and run over. I have had to sacrifice so much just to be able to get as far as I am and I still feel so far behind. Man, I wish I had been socking money away in the stock market for the last ten years. I feel like I don't make enough money and that even after all of my debt is paid off, I don't think I'll have enough money to adequately save for retirement and have a little fun. Life is so stressful. While I am extremely grateful for all of my blessings and the knowledge and passion to manage my finances, I don't at all feel lucky. I feel like I have worked hard to get a law degree and worked my way up through the years to get a decent salary. Nothing about my journey so far as felt easy or lucky.
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